Yup, you are right. There are implications to not growing along with the rest of the world. The weak will always be bullied. That's just how the geopolitical space functions. I am happy India is better developed today and can provide more opportunities to it's citizens. I do miss he good, free, happier life too but there is also so much I do not want to go back to. I think it is possible to retain the wilderness both literally and in spirit, if we work towards it.